It’s true, we’re 9 weeks pregnant now! I have to admit, sometimes I’m still in disbelief, but I am always grateful for this magical life that’s growing in my body right now, right this moment. I’m taking a deep breath, and I want to take it all in and connect with this miracle.
This week the baby is officially called a fetas instead of an embryo. I think I was back here just 3 weeks ago, freaking out and signing a big sign of relief when I had a scare, subcorionic hemotoma. It was the worst car ride of my life I have to admit. I told Evan that it was worse than my cancer diagnosis, though that was a close 2nd. I’m so grateful that we got to hear the baby’s heartbeat during that 15 min (what felt like 10 years) long of an ultrasound appointment with Dr. Kligman. We were scared, I don’t remember breathing. The room was full of tension and when we heard the heartbeat, I burst out in tears. I’ve never cried like that in public before, and that time I could not control my body. Now fast forward three weeks, everything is fine, thank God, and there were a bit of brown spotting here and there, but no new fresh blood, and not a lot of discharge.
I also graduated from Cornell’s reproductive clinic to a regular OBGYN this week! It was so weird to hear that from Dr. Kligman and the nurse Monica. I’m still not registering to be honest. I am glad that this 4 year journey with Cornell has now ended, and I really thank them for helping us create our little family. Thank you to the amazing team at Cornell, for the amazing care.
My tummy is definitely very bloated, I can feel my uterus getting bigger because my pants don’t fit anymore. I feel naucous, however I never really threw up. It’s the thought of certain foods that makes me feel sick though not exactly throwing up food. I’ve been peeing a lot more, and my fatigue is crazy. In the afternoon I am so tired, I usually can’t do anything and can just sit or lay down and rest. I thought I could use this time to write more and to practice more piano, but man this fatigue isn’t letting me do that much. It’s ok, I will not feel guilty about it, and I will just enjoy this quiet time, for in 6 months there won’t be anymore quiet time for a long time, haha 😀
Now, another update, job search. Never have I ever encountered such unprofessional group of executives before. ALD cancelled my interview on Monday 3 minutes before it was supposed to start. That was two strikes. I’m giving them another chance, but all of this so far is not giving me positive vibes about how these people work or manage their time or business well. Yes, LVMH invested around $3 million on them, so I think this management role was dictated by them to improve on their process and margins, but come on, it’s obvious that the current executives want to keep things status quo, and does not want to hire a new top management to change things at all. If they wanted to find someone seriously, then they would have actually interviewed people when they said they would. I don’t know how Ramina doesn’t see that, oh it’s the commission that she’ll get if she places this role for them, that’s why.
Moving on to better and greater things. This time around with my unemployment, I’m not going to be go crazy and start a business with an ex-coworker like after Haute Hippie and waste my time and energy for a year to make zero money and gain nothing from it. I’m also not going to waste hours on the phone talking to Willie trying to sell his app to local restaurants. I hate to say it but that was a total waste of my time and energy, minus the part that I was able to catch up with an old friend, but other than that, it was stupid of me to spend my time on that. Then there was Sarah, good thing that didn’t take a lot of my time then, but the website, the hours of phone calls, I feel that was too much of my time again. This time around, I’m focusing on myself, my mental wellbeing, my physical health and balance, and emotional calmness, zen. The only thing that I will do is to quickly help Ali with her costing, but other than that, it’s going to be all about me and my little growing fetas. Speaking of which, it’s time to eat some healthy yogurt with fruit and granola! YAY!!!
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