Nature is a comedian that likes to use coin tossing as the punchline of her set.
I have just received the update from Cornell about Evan and our donor eggs’ fertilization results. 7 out of 8 eggs fertilized overnight in the lab, and now we have to wait for their next steps by noon this Saturday (day 3) of whether we’re going to transfer on day 3 or day 5. I’m praying for day 5 blastocyst obviously because that would leave us with the STRONGEST and the FITTEST embryos to grow into a human being. According to Google, the probability of a successful pregnancy transferring of a day 5 blastocyst is 50-55% if the eggs are under the age of 37 (the donor was 28 years old when she donated). These are really great odds! It definitely beats my old eggs of 2-4% by A LOT! I really am grateful for this donor, no matter the outcome of this particular transfer, I’m happy we got to have this 50-55% chance of delivering a healthy baby!
It’s nerve-racking, these few days, so much so that I couldn’t sleep last night. It was partially because of my first-ever Taylor Swift concert coming up tomorrow, and partially because of this waiting period that’s making me overthink and over feel. Is this when I should microdose on some shrooms again to feel the calm and centeredness of this universe? I might, to be honest. Hey, at least day 3’s not on the day of TS’ concert, or else I would be SO recked in all aspects possible! I can imagine myself at the concert, with all the screaming fans around me, and I would be afraid to feel the excitement and to dance and jump around with them. I’m glad Monica was able to change my schedule by a day, this is crucial to my sanity.
Now, let’s get back to the attrition rates I’ve found online for successful blastocysts. These numbers are by chance and mother nature’s way to keep our species healthy, robust, and long-lasting, so I get it, we don’t want to be extinct like the Paradise Birdwing Butterflies, do we? From mature eggs to fertilized eggs the attrition rate is 22%. This means if you have 10 mature eggs, then 8 would be fertilized. From fertilized eggs to go into the blastocyst embryo stage the attrition rate is 53-67%, which means out of 8 mature eggs, 3-4 grow into viable blastocysts, good to be transferred on day 5. Natural selection is a bitch, but we don’t want to be extinct in the next hundred thousand years, do we?
I can take those numbers from mother nature, it’s ok, it’s only my body, my health, and my mental stability on the line, no big deal. At the very least, we know that law says for day 5 blastocysts transfers, in New York State hospitals, are only allowed to transfer 1 at a time if the eggs were from a younger woman. So there you go, even at day 5 we’re left with just 3 embryos, we still have 2 left to freeze and to try again IF we need to. The goal is to not have to do this again because of my health, but hey, mother nature likes to play practical jokes on me, right?
Let me count down to my BIG transfer day by ATTENDING, DANCING, AND SINGING with Taylor Swift, in person along with 100,000 people in NJ! I think that’s a good enough distraction for me to get through the next 3-5 days. Halleluja, Taylor Swift!
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