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There’s a Turkey in Our Backyard

At first we were thinking, “what is that big bird in the backyard? Is it a vulture? But it’s moving so slow, and has a friendly demeanor about it.”

It was a turkey that randomly came to our backyard to eat grass and poop. It was so cute! I don’t think I’ve seen a living turkey before, it really is a cute bird. Good thing I don’t enjoy eating turkey meat, because after it’s visit on Monday Feb 27, 2023, I will not eat another turkey meat again.

Spiritual meaning of a turkey according to spirit-animals.com:

Turkey’s symbolism is a good omen. Thus it indicates that great gifts are on their way to you. However, you must also understand that this bird, like the Octopus, is always a symbol of sacrifice for renewal. In other words, this spirit animal reminds you that you have to let go of something for new things to arrive. Therefore the Turkey meaning tells you that generosity will open the doors to growth and rebirth.

Alternatively, Turkey symbolism also reminds you that nothing is an endless resource.  Therefore, you must honor and nurture the abundant supplies on offer. Furthermore, you must be sure that you cultivate and care for those renewable resources that benefit your life. Regardless of your circumstances, now is the time to listen to your higher vision. After all, this is the best way to achieve your goals, whether they are spiritual, physical, mental, or emotional.

With the sudden appearance of a turkey, I find it very fitting that I was laid off on Feb 27, right before we saw the turkey in the backyard. Let me explain, for a few months now, I’ve been feeling that OVO will lay me off anytime because of these reasons; 1. They pay me too much for where I’m located, which is remote in NY and everyone else is going into the office in Toronto. 2. Out of sight, of our mind. The new CEO and Drex doesn’t even know what I do every day, why would they want to pay me six figures a year if they don’t know me at all?

I hate to say this but it was never meant to be long term there if I was always going to be in NY, and whether they’re in LA or Toronto, I still won’t be anywhere anyone of them would be. That’s not sustainable if everyone’s interacting in person now.

I feel ok about this, sure I’m disappointed that I won’t get paid sitting at home, but it’s also that feeling of getting laid off that doesn’t feel good no matter what. Is it pride? The thought of them not wanting me? Or is it that I am not worthy, or not good enough? I think it’s the feeling of being rejected that sucks. I do know that I did a very good job there for a year, and I have nothing I should feel ashamed about because I did my job, whether they know it or not. Also, I love my team as much as they love me, that says a lot about my contribution there. I can say, no one will forget me anytime soon there. With all that said, my time and performance deserved the salary I made there and more. I’m taking a bow with pride now in my head.

Today is day two of unemployment, and I have to admit, I couldn’t sleep well last night. I woke up at 4 am and couldn’t fall asleep until 5 am. The whole time I was imagining how it would be if I took Michelle’s advice (Michelle is an ex-worker of mine from Roller Rabbit who now work at A+O) to go back to RR. The main bad feeling I had was having to deal with Andrew not paying the factories as before. That is a given evil, said Michelle. It’s true, why would I want to waste a month or more of my time just to make a few thousand dollars? In just a few months, I won’t make a single positive change there and would feel unsatisfied and inauthentic afterward. Why do I want to put myself through such a thing? I’m 45 and about to turn 46 in two weeks, like the famous Einstein quote, “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.” Am I insane?!

The turkey is inspiring me to:

That’s a long list, it’s a list that needs to be attended to, way before I was laid off and have more freedom and time to think about it. There is no one way of working, it’s almost overwhelming how many possibilities are out there, it’s infinite. Things I can do:

Talk about change. Change is good in the long run, and I’m remembering that. Worrying, being afraid, being insecure all of these feelings are normal, and I just have to accept them as part of me, and I love them no matter what. What we do not know is scary, because we’re not in control, but at the same time it’s also inspiring, invigorating, and exciting because ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.

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